If you haven't guessed by now, anxiety is a constant problem for me, specifically social anxiety. I get pre-show anxiety like a raccoon with rabies (assuming raccoons can have anxiety...and rabies...what am I even saying anymore?) I have to leave in an hour and I'm just here in my pjs completely not ready and freaking out.
Once I tried taking medication before a show to help the nerves. It helped, but I was SO calm, I couldn't sing or play...just completely numb and you kinda need control over your muscles to sing. So now I just have to kind of mentally talk myself through the panic attacks. It comes in waves all morning up until I struck the first string.
Thing is, I KNOW what the root is: it's fear of being judged and messing up and embarrassing my bandmates. But ya know, in the world of music something like that can really hold you back so I am aware that I can't think that way. I've made a lot of progress; it's been WAY worse before, but there's always that feeling of pending doom.
So I'm sorry if I'm not at 100% when you try to talk to me before I perform. I might not be as friendly or enthusiastic to chat. However, talk to me AFTER the set and, yo, we gon' be the best of friends.